Smith,
Amber. The
Way I Used To Be. Simon & Schuster/McElderry Books 2016 384p $17.99 ISBN 978-1-4814-4935-9 hs/adult Realistic fiction VG-BN
Author Amber Smith immediately pulls
the reader into the psychological depths of despair as her protagonist, young
Edy, tries
to cope after being raped. Chapter One draws
the reader into Edy’s solitary suffering by describing the rape from her perspective. Imagine Edy’s introduction to adulthood, when her brother’s
best friend Kevin comes into her bedroom one night and attacks her, threatening
her with death if she tells. So begins Edy’s journey through her high-school years. Dubbed the “school slut”, Edy must try to cope as she forges ahead, in
and out of relationships that would have been quite fulfilling had she
been emotionally stable. Instead, she
keeps her secret to herself and tries to survive. Smith divides her book into four chapters of
life, each a year of senior high
school. In her
freshman year, Edy creates a lunch-time book club with her best friend Mara. Together, the girls try to define their role in
high school. This year, she runs into Kevin’s sister Amanda who looks at her
disdainfully. Edy can’t quite figure out
why. During sophomore year, she meets Josh, a
young man who senses that all is not right with her, yet forges ahead
with the relationship. Unbeknownst to
Josh, Edy is NOT sixteen, so when they have sexual relations, he is unaware
that he is breaking the law. Due to
Edy’s lack of ability to function in normal relationship-building, and because
Edy is underage, Josh breaks up with her.
There is so much more to this book, and Smith never divulges until the end whether Kevin will
have to pay for his crime or whether Edy will accept what has happened to her
and move ahead in life. This novel is
worth the time as much for its character development as for its dive into an
area of PTSD. Publisher please
note: The Tristate Young Adult review
committee recommends book of note status for published books; however, in
unusual cases, we can recommend an advance reader’s copy as a BON. Please see pages 238-239, where the italics are not correctly done
to indicate which words are part of a note and which are regular text.
This book is a very good choice for
high-school
readers as well as for young adults. The
rape scene is quite vivid, there is profanity, and the psychological trauma is
palpable.
Summary: After Edy is raped by her brother’s best friend, she struggles to cope
alone. Throughout the high-school year, she
faces obstacles, new understandings about life post-rape, and new
relationships. Normalcy is not part of
the equation.
Rape-Fiction,
PTSD-Fiction --Martha
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